Don't I know you? EMT 12/16/05 (Non Dream)

So it's official. I'm never leaving the house again. I'm used to getting lots of "Don't I know you?"'s but this is just starting to get too creepy. And too many all around the same time.

So I went to pay a couple bills, and I stopped in a gas station to get a pepsi. There's an EMT inside with his partner, at the register. One pays for his stuff and heads back out, the other is finishing up paying and turns, starts to go then stops and glances at me.

"Don't I know you?"
I dunno, it's possible. *smile*
"Yeah... yeah I do. You're Jade."
I'm... sorry I don't remember your name.
"Oh it's alright, I don't mean from here. I'm Randy though."
*gawd you're cute this is fucked up what the hell is going on here*
Oh.. you mean from the ah.. *nod*
"Yeah, from there. Nice meeting up with people here isn't it?"
Yeah, yeah it is.
*as his radio goes off and he grimaces*
"I've got to get back to work, but you take care."

What the hell is up with this lately?

The puzzle within a nightmare within a dream 12/16/05

Ok so in the dream I was like going to school and I was female.. and I'd been out a lot sick or something and people were asses blah blah. And I guess I had mono or something. So I was back and not really doing much just going around to my classes and this one teacher was having me do a role call and I was marking people that were there on a big white board with their pictures on it, painting X's over their faces with white out. It was kind of strange..

So I went home after school and crawled in bed, I had a brother and sister. We all slept in the same big bed. Went to sleep after a while and I thought the dream just shifted but.. it was like something that came out of a really bizarre creepy horror movie. There was this supreme evil thing in a house and it was affecting everybody in it.. my family. And they would get mean and get creepy and then they'd disappear like my parents did and then... I was asleep with my sisters, which was when I realized that in the dream in the dream I was male, and one of them rolled over and she started sinking through the bed into this acidy fleshy stuff and screaming and it swallowed her up whole through the bed. Ate her alive. And I was like screaming and trying to get her out and I couldn't save her and then I snatched my other sister off the bed and I woke up.

And.. as I woke up in the dream and started looking to see if my brother and sister were ok I woke up in r/l. Looked at the clock, thought fuck me that was strange I'm glad I woke up, and went back to sleep after a few minutes.. only to pick back up in the dream.

My sister was gone. We were having to try and deal with that. And I went to school, gawd knows why and everyone was staring at me like it was my fault and I'd had something to do with my sister disappearing. Lots of whispering and other bullshit.

Went home from school had to go through the woods to get there and it's like a typical horror movie scene. Creepy woods, light fading away, lots of wind and leaves whipping around all over the place and the urgent sense to hurry up and get the fuck out of there. So I get home and my parents aren't there just my brother and he's like "Something's not right we need to get out of here now."

Right.. so I like called someone.. someone paranormal that I thought might be able to help. And she told me that I had to go back into the dream and fix it, nothing else would work, we'd only get taken too. So I curl up in my brother's arms and try to go to sleep and he's petting me saying don't do it you're gonna get lost too. *sighs*

So.. I went back into the dream and I'm male again and I run through the house trying to find my sister so I can get her out of there and somewhere safe while I try to figure out what's going on and get my other sister and parents back and.. I look through the whole place and wind up in our bedroom downstairs and throw back the covers on the bed.. and then pulled the rest of the sheets off so it was down to mattress and in the middle where I slept was a normal patch of bed, and on both sides where my sisters slept was the acidy fleshy stuff that swallows them alive. And I'm like screaming in frustration and screaming at whoever's behind this to show themselves.

This dream was just too fucking strange. There was a dark voice that like thundered through the house and asked me what I was expecting to find. There wasn't anyone else there and there hadn't been for years. Didn't I remember that? I'd killed my family and been thrown in a psych ward for it and they had just let me out.

.......................

And I like start having flashbacks of killing my parents and my sisters and throwing all their bodies in the bed and throwing acid on them to try and make the bodies go away.

.......................

And so.. I woke up screaming.. Except when I woke up from the dream within the dream I woke up into my brother's body and the screaming was my sister because I'd just stabbed her and started trying to eviscerate her......... And then I woke up again and I was in the female body and I took the knife and stabbed it into my brother's throat and cut out his wind pipe and started sobbing.

And then I really did wake up again. And I went and took a shower to get the blood off my hand. Blood on my hand and a huge bruise on my arm that's faded some to a smaller bruise but it's still there. I wanna know what the fuck that was about and why I'm having nightmares like this again.

Ask a Question 12/12/05

Murr: I'm not sure if it was a dream dream or a complex dream but..
Murr: I was on duty in the monitoring station by myself and trying to stay awake cause the cats kept waking me up all morning and I was finally like ok I know you guys can hear me, I wanna ask a question and remember the answer to it
Murr: and so after a bit a voice finally said you're stubborn, you've asked this before but ask again
Murr: so I asked if I was male or female, and they said both.. was like ok..
Murr: both as in how?
Murr: and they said something along the lines of you were female and we needed another empath that already knew operations so we made a separate you and it was male, no more questions
Murr: and I sat the arguing to the silence that I still had more questions for like a half hour
Reyn: ahh
Reyn: yeah but...we already knew that
Murr: they wouldn't let me ask any other questions
Reyn: so ok..you sometimes go there as a female then?
Reyn: but the ones that's there is male
Reyn: was thinking you know
Murr: yeah
Reyn: they only pull the female you in when the other is unable to go for some reason
Murr: that's what I was thinking
Reyn: which would explain why there's two of you there sometimes
Murr: I was trying to ask if we were on atlantis or involved with it but they wouldn't let me verbalize that
Reyn: even if you could get better jobs and take care of yourself
Reyn: we take people from the star gates to complexes or colonies
Reyn: other clones and to villages and places where they need to go safely
Reyn: from the gates
Murr: yes
Reyn: or to the gates
Reyn: sometimes we only have a map to get there
Reyn: sometimes we have to find something on the way also if possible
Murr: was just trying to see if I could get a response on where everything is, or when
Reyn: does it really matter? it's all kind of the same bebe
Reyn: thats what I think anyway
Murr: well since I went to bed thinking about how to make it up to Ren, I dunno why it came up at all
Reyn: cause you've been wondering
Reyn: consciously and unconsciously

At the Mall (Non Dream) 12/10/05

Today has to be the strangest day I've ever had complex related. I couldn't sleep, no matter how hard I tried, and trust me I did try, for three hours. So I finally gave up and got out of bed and had this nagging sensation to go to the mall. No reason for me to go. There's nothing I wanted to buy and I hate the crowds and window shopping. Never the less the nagging sensation kept up so I gave into it and went. Looked around for a bit, wound up in the movie store and bought a couple dvd's then I headed out to the food court to get something to eat and then leave. This guy bumps into me.

I'd noticed him a few times while I was walking through the mall but hadn't really paid him any mind. Yet there he is, bumping into me non-apologetically and then just standing there watching me expectantly. So finally I gave in and spoke.

me: "Hi.. sorry."
"I'm not. So it is you then."
me: "Huh? Excuse me?"
"Oh you don't recognize me? Well, thanks for your help the other day anyways. Wouldn't have made it without you and your buddy."

ok whoa..... so it's complex related

me: "Oh, wow, ok sorry.. no I don't recognize you, but you're welcome."
"Nah, don't worry about it. Oh and by the way, I'd still do you."
me: "Huh?" *blush* "Well thanks..."
*huge grin on his part* "You blush here too, nice."
me: "So you like remember stuff from there? Did you wanna sit down and talk? Or do you have an email or yahoo I could get hold of you at?"
"You know it's against the rules, don't bother. I'm glad I ran into you though, I thought it was you when I saw you looking at the sci-fi movies. Have a good one, blusher."

And that was it. He walked off before I could convince him otherwise. Gawd and he was fucking hot too. Drowning pool eyes. How damn bizarre is that?? I wish I could have gotten him to sit down and talk or.. something anything. *mumbles*

Complex, Sore Throat 12/6/05

So.. I'm not sure what all was going on but I slept from 8-4 and woke up to Reyn's buzz... something on a mission had just slammed a sharp pointy object into the side of my neck, twisted, and jerked it free. I can barely swallow, keep coughing... I'm almost like expecting blood. Think we must have had a healer around I have no marks from it what so ever I checked.. I just still can hardly swallow.

I don't remember anything else from it.