Do I Look Like A Real Cop? 11/30/05

So I was like in Louisiana with my in-laws and J wasn't around.. and my brother in-law Jarod had gotten his driver's permit and he wanted to take me out to McDonald's to go eat.. so he convinced his mom that he wasn't hungry for pizza and dragged me out.. and he's driving his dad's truck and like runs a red light getting there and he has an antenna or something setup for his mom's cell phone in her suv and she's behind us driving?

So we got there and there's like this huge kind of.... fun obstacle course or something setup.. and you have to go through it to get into the building? So we go up and we're like talking and catching up and stuff and you have to climb up this huge swinging catwalk thing that gets progessively higher up and there's like all these girls complaining about it and we just kept going.

Finally get inside and we start eating and everything and then my dad shows up and says he needs my help for something so I told Jarod to stay put and I'd come back for him. Go with Dad.. he has to pick up something from a party at the Circle (the bar he goes to up in SD) and I wind up having to play bartender for a bit while he talks to people.. and someone asked me if I was pregnant and that was when I realized that I was female.. and.. yup.. pregnant.. wtf? So I'm like yeah and she starts gushing saying how great I look and I shouldn't be working and dad finishes up and I go with him and he has me drive... and it's his damn beat up Willis pickup truck.. so we're driving and I'm like killing my arms trying to get the steering wheel to turn and all..

And Dad looks over at me and he's like calling someone on his cell and he says "Do I look like a real cop when I'm calling you?" was like... ok wtf is this.. "Yeah.. well at least you do it with confidence and that's what makes a difference.." and then Reyn came on and I woke up.

There was more to it than that, but it's all faded now. I remember something vaguely from the complex where I had refused to do the experiment but I don't remember any specifics.. strange ass night.. not sure what all that was about.

Khalara, Complex, and.. More Searching 11/28/05

So it started off the same way they're all starting lately.. think I seriously need some release. Dream switched to Khalara then.. with Charlie helping Alex in his office, and the Morrigan appeared out of nowhere with a prophecy.. I can't remember the words. I dunno what started Khalara again.. but was like checking up on how everyone was.. lots of women either were pregnant or had their babies already and the Duils and Jolie were perfecting their combining/attack thing.. I dunno. Anyways.. Switched to the complex for a while. More of the I can't believe you agreed to do the experiment you have to change your mind I won't let you do it, you're on my team, I'm your team leader I get a say in this so you AREN'T doing it.. more pushing and shoving and fighting and make up. Woke up briefly from that and went back to sleep.. it was.. I was in Memphis or somwhere, it looked familiar.. and I was tagging along with this group of four people. Doing research for something.. some archaeological dig or treasure hunt.. like usual, lately. Anyways we... were at a restaurant discussing what our next move was, and this guy shows up and says.. "I know you don't trust me, but you're just going to have to because I know where the obelisks are." So.. we argued over that a bit then had him sit down and we started making plans to go find the obelisk which was out in Samaria (present day.. Jordan) and then another one was in the Gobi Desert. The obelisks had keys to something else we had to find, then the keystones get put into the obelisks and.. something happens, I dunno what. Too much of it has faded now. *sighs*

Car Chase 11/28/05

Murr: started off dreaming about charlie and bryan, then it sequed into charlie and tyler then it was charlie and chris then the cat knocked something over and went back to sleep and started this strange dream about driving around santa monica or somethin with J, following you, you were leading us somewhere
Murr: and we turned down a side street and ran into a fence and the engine killed and flooded and wouldn't start again and J was bitching at me about it being my fault
Reyn: ahh
Murr: and you called and started laughing about you knew I couldn't keep up and I told you what happened and you're like shit I'll turn around
Murr: and J kept bitching and got out of the car and went to talk to the lady that owned the house and came back and started to bitch at me again and the fucker called and woke me up

Basketball? switched to Complex 11/27/05

I was female.. and hanging out with a bunch of girls, and we were like in school or something. And there are all these rulles and regulations and restrictions about the things you're allowed to do, or when you can do them, and you have to follow them or you'll be killed or corporal punishment or something.. anyways. So I'm dating this guy and he's a basketball player and we just want to have sex and make out and we keep trying to sneak off to do it except they keep calling him to come play so he has to go or it's back to the death/punishment thing. So he goes and plays and I go and bitch to the girls I was hanging out with.. and one of them says "you were so much easier to get along with when you were a guy"
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Ok so then something woke me up right after.

Got back to sleep. Dream changed to... I was back to being my usual dream self and in the complex and we just got back from a mission and were debriefing then winding down and went and found Reyn and he was telling me that he can't believe I'd even consider going through with their experiment and doing the sex change and we started arguing about that heatedly.. to the point of shoving and hitting and then it just.. went elsewhere from that. *coughs* So... yeah.


Sex change???????

Murr: I have no fucking clue where that came from
Murr: some experimental thing they were doing to see if it heightened abilities

Atlantis RP 11/27/05

Ok so chars wet dreams are messed up, and.. so when you start speaking to yourself in your dreams in riddles, about roleplay, you know there's something seriously wrong. Was dreaming about Charlie dreaming about Atlantis. He mumbled some stuff to himself when he woke up:

the key lies within

for memories untold, look within
your mind expands, and soon draws thin
take not from the past, for it's long since gone
the answers you seek can be found in the dawn


Anyways.. so there it is. Found a couple Atlantean fonts earlier too, will do something with it and pass it on. I think it's nonsense, because it doesn't really mean much no triggers, but it goes with the rp thing with Alysa so I'll just leave it at that.

Clay and Dai's Submissives 11/25/05

Murr: first dream started out as I was in Memphis and a girl and my best friend Clay's mom was getting remarried to this guy but the guy was like a demon or a.. something not good and so I was trying to convince Clay not to let his mom get married, then Clay figured out what the guy was and confronted him and went missing and so I spent the rest of the dream trying to find a way to vanquish the guy and he kept trying to kill me and it was a lot of running around and like huge storms and floods and I finally got the asshole dead and Clay came back and I woke up........

Murr: then... went back to sleep and I was driving down to dai's house *mumbles* and I get there and the girls run out to see me at the car except they're like all older and there's a bunch of other teenage girls living there that they're like training to be submissives, and I was bitching and arguing at dai and ken for having kids in the house involved in bdsm and this 16 yo girl starts hitting on me calling me mistress wanting to serve me and I kept like trying to disuade her from it and she kept trying to force herself on me and be all seductive and there were all these pregnant cats running around..

Murr: I would so like a normal dream for once lately... just one regular dream
Reyn: lmao
Reyn: well you know the last one would be a fairly good premonition
Reyn: cause no offense but they're headed that way
Murr: I know
Murr: except dai and ken are getting divorced, and I don't plan on ever going down there again, ever
Reyn: never know

Cereal Prize 11/22/05

Murr: you and me in the kitchen and I was eating cereal but I was digging through the box trying to get to the prize
Murr: going I know they put it in here, I know they did
Reyn: lmao
Murr: and you were telling me that's stupid no one would be dumb enough to put it in a cereal box
Reyn: we agrue alot in your dreams or go back and forth
Murr: and I pulled out this little... carved gold square that was slightly raised on one side like a pyramid had a smoky gem on it that was swirling with like some sort of mist or something inside
Murr: yeah we do
Murr: it's bad
Murr: but we always
Murr: not like we don't sit here and argue anyways ;p
Murr: anyways so I like shoved it at you and said ha!
Reyn: lmao
Murr: and you were mumbling and I started laughing and called someone to let them know and went back to eating my cereal
Reyn: you need to write that down
Reyn: well you know don't think we're on escourt duty anymore
Reyn: we're looking for stuff
Murr: I was trying to remember all the others I had between waking up
Murr: I've been looking for things for a while now
Murr: the house in the swamp dream?
Murr: the box
Murr: all the houses
Murr: I'm always looking for something
Murr: and it's always pyramid like or ancient and has to do with the stars
Reyn: yeah last dream I had of escourting was walking beside the river in the rain and mud
Murr: yeah
Reyn: I'm looking at stuff

iPod? Not sure.. 11/21/05

Had a weird dream and I can't remember any of it now. Something to do with... we were looking for something and there were images of it stored on an iPod Shuffle and someone had a tiny little screen with an adapter for it that you hook up to view the files and everyone kept saying give it to him to see, let him look at it.. so they shoved it at me and I was looking through the files going omg that's just.. wow they have that too.. omfg I thought this was lost..

I can't remember now what the items were! Fuckin a... ah well. It was something, as usual, to do with astronomy related items, or ancient archaeological tools, etc etc. Things you'd expect to find in something like Stargate. Little sun dials that line up with planets to show a map or.. well, you get the idea.

So it's back to this. The same stuff as from the dream about the box. I think it's probably the same time frame, the same reality. I just don't know if it's an alternate reality/dimension, or it's a future life. Either way, it keeps coming up. I know whatever the things are we're looking for, they're extremely important to the cause. 'The Cause' ..... 'The Bigger Picture' ...... I think this has something to do with the Indigo Children, and with.. things coming to an end/new beginning.

I just wish I could remember more. It's 1:36 now. 30 minutes to write this little bit??? Grrrrrr....

Humming Sound 11/20/05 (Non Dream)

Alright, so this wasn't actually a dream, it was something that happened today, but I felt like I needed to write it down anyways. Log taken from talking to Reyn, I'll elaborate more.

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Murr: so besides the fact that my bathroom felt like a meat locker...
Murr: you know that strange humming pulsing throbbing sound movies associate with ufo's or other strange things?
Reyn: yes
Murr: heard that in the bathroom while I was freezing my ass off and so.. out of curiosity because I've turned into a dumb blonde from a horror movie
Murr: I went outside
Reyn: lmao
Murr: no birds chirping, no sounds of cars just the humming sound
Murr: then it stopped and all the regular ambience kicked in
Reyn: you're a dumbass
Murr: I know
Murr: I started whimpering like an idiot had to come check the time make sure I didn't fall for a trap gawd
Murr: not that it matters

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Soo.. yeah. I hadn't lost any time. I'd been gone a total of seven minutes from when I went brb to when I sat back down. Between going to the bathroom then going outside that's how long it would have taken. And I know that doesn't mean anything, but something about that just was so.. not.. right. Not in the least bit. The sound sent chills down my spine and I couldn't help but go outside to check and see. Haven't had anything like this happen in a long long time. I'm gonna call Dad about it. Have a pounding headache now too.

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Edit: 7:35pm - I called and talked to Dad.. he didn't sound himself, not sure what's up, and I couldn't get him to talk for long. So I told him what happened. He asked me about time loss. Nothing new there, same old drill. He said it was probably an electro-magnet field. Also nothing new there. Guess I was expecting more from Dad.. some reassurance or insight. *sighs* Oh well. Time to watch Charmed now that it's frickin 7:52. Gonna take a quick nap after that.. and hopefully Reyn will be on and the headache will be gone.

Mass updates

Well let's see... since the last dream I remembered in detail there hasn't been much that I really do remember. I have had a few dreams about Shaun the last week, they started up out of the blue, and I went back and read some logs and the dreams just keep happening, except it goes from Shaun to Chris and back and forth and.. it's confusing but ah well. Just dreams.

Other than that... nothing. Tiny tidbits of complex happenings but it's nothing new, just the same old sitting around playing cards, or talking watching movies, nothing about missions.

I still can't write though. This has taken me forever to try and get out.

Trying To Get Home 11/11/05

So besides the fact that today is a double digit.. 11/11, the dream I had a bit ago before I woke up was kind of strange.

I was back in Memphis and not with friends of family, at least not people that I knew from the past to be. Something happened and then.. I wanted to go home, so I had someone drive me except by the time we got over to Knight Arnold and Mendenhall I forgot what street you had to turn on to get to Cristil. I could not, for the life of me, remember. I keept passing Newberry where my school was on and saying no no you went too far, turn around, and we'd get back to Knight Arnold and it was too far again. The constant back and forth and turning down streets, lost while looking for that one fucking street to turn down. I even tried going down Knight Arnold to turn down the other street to get to Cristil, but of course as soon as we did, I forgot that street name too.

Well, just for reference since I looked it up:

Mendenhall to Scottsdale
Scottsdale to Cristil
or
Knight Arnold to Dothan
Dothan to Cristil

That was one of the most aggrivating dreams I've ever had in my life. I should have known that, living there for eleven years. And everytime I got close something made me forget. I have the feeling that it was a "red herring" dream so to speak just to keep me distracted from something else. And... since I know Reyn is still asleep because I can feel the pull, going back to bed now.

A Few Past Dreams

So here are a few of my dreams from the past. I'll just put them in one post for now, and add the others when I can find them.


The Gnarled Woman 9-14-05

there was a path through the woods, marked off with knotches and symbols on the trees and I was having to follow it deeper and deeper in.. cold misty woods, and the ground slowly started sloping down more and more into a valley, and then I just went sliding and falling through the trees because there was a sudden drop off

whenever I finally hit flat ground again was in some kind of a shallow canyon, with a cabin there.. smoke coming out of a chimney, could see a fire inside through a window.. made my way over.. slowly got up the courage to knock and the door did that eerie just kind of creak open thing

there was an old woman inside... gnarled, wrinkled.. doubled over with age.. she had... one of the most.. hideous, frightening faces I've ever seen.. and she told me to come in and shut the door, because I was letting all her warmth out.. so I went in with that I'm gonna die here, full of dread sense and she pointed to a chair with this long twisted finger

so I sat... and she got me a bowl of some kind of broth and made me drink it... then came over and cupped my chin and stared at me for a while.. then she told me a whole bunch of things

and I can't remember a single one, was just things that were going to happen that I needed to prepare for, and things that I needed to know about so that I could stop them

that woman just downright fuckin freaked me out.. like I shouldn't have been there, shouldn't be listening, shouldn't be touching the broth... can't remember anything past her starting to talk, except I know it didn't end there

(I had a follow up dream to this, where I went back to see the gnarled woman to find out what I had before since I couldn't remember, and she told me that if I came to see her again there would be severe repricussions and this was the last time she would tell me. I still can't remember.)



The Box 9-23-05

was a student in some kind of school for exceptional students.... it wasn't a regular school, it was for people who were gifted somehow but I don't remember how

throughout the entire dream no matter how it varied I was on some sort of schedule, had to find something had to get things at a certain time of day or specific time, no matter what

there was a guy that was sort of in charge of the school I guess and he was so.. negative.. evil.. he was an asshole.. there was a girl that charmed my best friend into marrying him in the middle of school so I'm like driving them off to get married protesting saying no you can't do this it's wrong she tricked you come on baby you don't wanna do this and I swerve and ram into something and he gets knocked out of it and the charm wears off he takes off to go home and get away from her before it starts again.. take the girl back to the school and the guy in charge... like the principal.. has us escorted into the building to his office and I'm saying he's gonna kill you for this you're in so much trouble and we sit and wait and he shows up and then I'm the one that's getting my ass chewed and she's all smug like I knew what I was doing I was supposed to do it and he sends her off and then I'm arguing with him about how that's bullshit and wrong and he can't get away with it someone will find out.. he like starts to escort me out of the building himself with his hand on my jaw telling me how no one will even know I'm missing no one will remember, and it was such a loss because I had potential but I just can't see the bigger picture.. and I like bite his finger, bite down hard enough to try and break it or sever it and he finally lets go then I run for it..

a lot of stuff happened between the beginning and end and I can't remember it all.. Reyn was the best friend I saved.. um.. there were other people I recognized, we got together on this.. save the end of the world or be guardians against something team and we worked towards protecting people from the apocalypse or other people like us that had special gifts/abilities.. and this part is just all sort of muddled into a lapse..

the end of the dream I went into this really really old place.. like way old.. and I had to climb up.. was climbing up through like this old.. walled in section or something, pulling myself up from one wooden beam to the next, and I kept checking at certain points feeling for something behind the boards against the wall.. and I finally found it, pulled it out and had to secure myself so I wouldn't fall then opened it.. it was an old, old old box.. dark wood and black.. the top was sort of inlaid on it.. slid into a groove the whole way across to shut it and when it was closed you couldn't tell how it even opened..

on the back of the lid when you flipped it over it looked like it was meant to be an egyptian artwork to sit on a table or something was black with gold embossing and it was basically this mountain scene with an eclipsed sun over it, and dark, dead things were coming up the mountain, like zombies or mummies, things that weren't alive and things that would.. bring about the end of existence or something

inside the box was another puzzle piece, the entire quest to find this had been nothing but a huge puzzle piece, and like always there was a piece missing, things slid into place and locked and there was some kind of herb or root inside it that you had to eat and something else, but there was a small little piece missing off the corner like it had broken off so you couldn't finish the incantation that was on the thing to invoke or jump start whatever it was that was supposed to happen when you did it..

so I closed the box back up and put it under my shirt tucked into my pants and instead of climbing back down, I kept going up.. was like climbing up an old chimney or ventilation shaft or something except it was all stone/brick and it had been boarded up at some point so there were the wooden beams dispersed along the inside.. and I finally stopped near the top and pushed a board aside instinctively and crawled out into a small like attic room, and on the mantle on the far side of the room was the piece that was missing from the box thing.. went and grabbed that stuck it in my jeans and then took the stairs down.. go figure, couldn't take the stairs up but there were stairs down

get out let someone know that I had the box and then low and behold Jason like shows up out of no where.. hasn't been in any of the rest of the dream, except I can tell it isn't Jason.. and he shouldn't be in the dream.. he didn't fit.. and his mom is with him and he's like did you get it? let me see it? and he looks at it and he's in awe about me finding it and he wants to go ahead and do the invocation now like *right* then and there and I'm getting a worse and worse feeling about it and he goes off to get us something to eat with the stuff inside the box that you have to eat and his mom's like waiting with me and I'm showing her the stuff and trying to explain to her what the language is and what the end result is and she turns the lid on the box over and looks at it and goes.. hmm.. well you realize if you do this that you'll unleash all these things on the people that you were supposed to save.. this doesn't do the good you thought it would do

and so Jason comes back and I'm struggling trying to decide whether to do the invocation or go put the box back where I got it and throw the broken off piece away and he's trying to urge me to go ahead and do it and when I finally tell him I won't he's all dejected then he's like ok.. well.. you can head home.. so I get ready to go and I still have the box with me for some reason and I start to drive home and Jason calls me and like wants me to do the invocation over the phone with him while I'm driving and I protested for a long time then gave in and started it and that's when I woke up

Welcome Home 11/6/05

So.. this one is about you know who coming back. Reyn was offline but somehow I was close enough to go over to your house and skulk around depressed outside, hands shoved in my pockets kicking at the ground, upset that you were offline and stuff.

There was a welcome home party going on and you had a bunch of family over celebrating, and everybody was inside watching a movie. And I sat down against something and knocked over like the trash can or something.. and you sent Joey outside to see what it was so he drags me in and says we have a burglar and like pushes me into the room and I'm looking all apologetic cause I so know I sohuldn't be there and it's only going to cause problems. So you know who looks at me and just mutters something about I stick my nose into everything else so I might as well stay and Joey like kinda pushes me some more then goes and sits back down and you just give me this pitiful look like I'm glad to see you but why'd you have to do it so I sit down in a chair outside the room and slide down in it some stretching my legs out and lay my head against the wall glancing into the room at you some.

You watch me for a while then roll your eyes and get up and drag me back into the room and like pull me into a recliner with you to sit and watch the rest of the movie and all the family that's there like stares at me disapprovingly and after a while they all start leaving shaking their heads at me and not saying anything. Joey keeps giving me dirty looks like I shouldn't be there and I'm fucking things up then Jon and Kate come out and like hug me and start chattering away while everyone's leaving and you kinda grin and try to hide it and I get up and go into the kitchen to talk to the two for a bit. Everyone clears out except you and the grumpy ass and the kids and I convince Jon that I'm still gonna be there in the morning so he should go back to bed and we can talk then. So.. I go back into the room you're watching the movie in and start to sit in a different chair and you pull me back into the recliner and whisper that you're glad I came because you were losing your mind and we just snuggle into each other and watch the last of the movie.. and one of the cats pounced me as the grumpy ass was getting up to say something so I dunno what happened after that.

Play the Part 11/5/05

I was female in this one.. I wasn't married to this guy but I looked just like his wife and they were fighting and he was rich. And his wife wasn't around for whatever reason and someone saw me in the hotel he was staying in and assumed I was her and like dragged me off made me get all dressed up and did my hair and makeup said go and just get this over with then you can go back to pretending to be someone else and I'm thinking what the fuck.. so I go and meet the guy and we have to have this big dinner then some movie premiere or something I dunno.. anyways I wind up spending all night talking to the guy and getting to know him and falling in love with him like an idiot, and he's like.. thinking he's falling in love with his wife again and he's really happy about it..

Then the alarm went off and I hit snooze (omfg I hit snooze on an alarm? what's wrong with this picture) and tried to get back to the dream but I couldn't and I wound up in a partial recovery dream.. started out in the complex snuggled up to Reyn telling him I don't care what he calls me because it doesn't matter it's just a name and I'm just me anyways and... led to other things from there, then it merged into just hard, pounding sex except I wound up female again.

I think it's all Reyn's fault with the talk last night we had. ;p

Fight 11/1/05

Um.. Reyn and I were living near each other in Louisiana. Reyn's J was an ass. My J wasn't around. Jon and Kate were being themselves and hanging around asking lots of questions and being pains but it was nice.

We had been sitting around for a few hours talking, and.. I said something about how next life, we should try to just bypass everyone else and just be together, because after all these years of obviously not getting to be with each other first it'd be nice..

Reyn went off on me and told me to stop my wishful thinking and just get over the fact that I wasn't important enough to come first so I could just come around towards the end like always and fix all the mistakes and be dropped as soon as they were.

And so.. Reyn left, the kids and J went with and.. even in the complex there was like.. no emotion no interaction, nothing anymore it was just gone. And I got so pissed off about it and was selfish enough to not do my job there and Reyn wound up getting attacked and died.

And.. whenever I woke up I tried calling for a long time, in the dream. No answer for a few days.. and when I finally did get through you didn't even know me at all.



I have no idea where this came from or why, but I can't handle another one like this.